Friday, August 10, 2007
Baby boy ;this are for you .ie hope you will qet th chance th read it .I miss you .I need you .I want you .I lonq for your love .I feel helpless without you .I want you by my side, always .
Im thinkinq abt you every moment, every second .I wish that i could tell you this .But im just too afraid t do so .Im afraid that you would avoid me .Im even more afraid that you would leave me for ETERTNITY !But i still love you for who you are .Your my perfect quy .Your personality so perfect .I remembered every sinGle word you said .How i wished we could b toqether .All i can do now is t wish n pray what you said was not true .I hope you really can make my wish come true .I will love you for life , i PROMISE .I feel so useless, so depressed .What if one day i landed in hospital ?Would you be th first th rush down ?Or would you be th last t come ?Or rather would you even not turn up ?I don't know how much i mean t you in your heart,But i know in my heart,You do mean alot t me .Your my everythinq,My one and only .If only ie could own you for just a day,I would b contented enouqh t end my life now,Just for you,And no other .My heart beats for you .Your my only reason t carry on with life .Without you,I quess i would drop dead .I love th way you cared for me .Every tear i shed,Is for you .My Dearest Boy .
11:54 PM
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
hais .how ie really wish time would stop ,somewhere somehow .hais .but ie know it wont .im really puzzled now .ie feel like im stucked between 2 great walls .and ie feel like im qonnq break dowan anytime .ie dont know .ie feel so useless .hais .nut ther's one wall which is movinq away day by day .t a place where it can be stronq enouqh t support other .hais .ie wont blame you , dont worry .cos' ie know all th faut lies in me ,nort you .hais .and th other wall respresents my will t qo on with life .thankyou !how ie wish we could be tqt .hais .but ie dont hink it would hpn riqht ?hais .cos' nothinq qood hpns t me .im always involved in th bad thinqs .hais .im really stressed out now .how ie wish ie could just end my fcukinq life riqht now .hais .im really worried that ie would lose th support that you are qivinq me now .hais .can you dont leave me ?please ???
5:03 PM
Friday, July 13, 2007
hais .
nowadays,
my memory is failinq mye .
keep forqetinq thinqs .
no matter important or nort
ie jus keep forqetinq .
now,
all ie can do is hOpe & pray that ie wont forqet ue .
hais .
really enjoyed th times so much .
ie don want t forqet it .
hais .
ue made me this way .
your th one hu caused all this .
why must you appear in my life ?
or riqht after i've been hurt by someone else .
its hard t forqet do you know ?
i've carved ue onto my heart .
it cant b erased so easily .
ie didnt use a
pencil .
ie used a special pen just for a special someone like you
that cant b erased or forqotten easily .
hais .
why must this thinqs
always happen t me & not others ?
why is GOD so unfair ?
you must b thinkinq that is just a cush all & all .
but,
ie can tell you that its
MORE than just a crush .
ie turuly LOVE you .
at first,
ie couldn't use th word LOVE t describe my feelinqs for you .
but as time passed,
my feelinqs grew deeper everyday .
hais .
each day,
while you were out havinq fun,
im starinq into th phone waitinq for your msq-es .
you didn't know hoe much ie
suffered because of what you did .
you
JERK !
& do you still remember th
PROMISE we made ?
ie take th effort t try n remember & ie do hope you can remind me .
hais .
& t me,
ure th definition of LOVE .
ie would do anythinq just for you .
cos boy your so worth it .
your personality so
perfect,
your my perfect match my soulmate
& lifetime bestfriend .
your my infinity on a scale of 1-10 .
ie meant every word that ie said .
just look into my eyes & you will know th truth .
ie just want t b with you .
cos ie know that there's nothinq in this world called
FOREVERcan you just give me a chance ?
ie promise t love you with all my heart & soul .
th only thinq ie want now is
you t b by my side now .
ie really need you !
Do Our Primise Still Stands ?
Untouchable Memories
10:49 PM
Thursday, July 05, 2007
hellos:]came t update le .hmms .quite alot ofb thinqs hpned .haisThe thouqht of it makes me feel so depressed and unwanted .
even until now . ie MISS you so so much . im thinkinq of you every moment every second .while you were out havinq fun ,im starinq into the phone waitinq for your messaqes .but you didn't even bother .im readinq your messaqes OVER AND OVER aqain .where were you when ie needed you MOST?ie was there for you when you felt down .what about me ?have you ever spare a thouqht for me ?can't you be more SENSITIVE towards me ?you said that you care you worry .but it seems lyk you dont .action speaks louder then words my dear .it is TOUGH for me to make a DECISION .as i've been HURT before .it left me with a DEEP DEEP scar .where were you when ie needed you most ?ie was there for you when you felt downwhat about me ?didn't you even spare a thouqht for me .
all that you cared for was YOUSELF .JERK !hais .den th day before yesterdayie suddenly felt a thousands needles piercinq into my heart .damn freakinq pain luhhs .actually it quite normal .hpned frm last year till now le .everytym oso liddat de .but normally ie still can tahan .but yesterday was really really damn painful !its PHYSICALLY PAIN luhhs !den was talkinq t lipinq on th fone .she asked me t see doctor .but ie dowan .cos lyk nth serious wad .frm last year till now oso nth hpn .den she tol me abt her aunt luhhs .oso lyk me .kept sayinq nth serious .den in th end check le realise cancer staqe 4ie chua tio luhhs .den ie damn scared .went t tell munny abt it .den went t c doctor ytd .th doctor lyk kns liddat la .said it was nth serious luhhs .den gave me some muscal pain de medicine .den she said .ifb eat le no use qo scan .zzzzzz .den my sore throat till now havent recover luhhs .hais .still couqhinq couqhinq everyday .hais .den couqh till lyk wan die liddat luhhs !1 week plus plus le .hais .den sch open first week it think .adora, shiy came t my hse t do lit project .
hhas .took some photos .cos was super sian-ed .
adora & mye(:
adora, shiy & me !
saw Vivie lyinq on a pece of newspaper .
hhas .
took a photo of her .
ain't she cute ?
went t SYF openinq last fri at SIS ie think .
it was damn damn nice luhhs .
hhas .
when MF came out t perform we kep shotuinq luhhs .
we went ki-siiao .
hhas .
ie did nort reqret qq .

& here are th cookies ie arranqed in a heart shape
as promised in th previous update !
nice ?



takecare people !
8:53 PM
Monday, June 25, 2007
hello people !!
super lonq nvr bloq le !
hhas .
alot ofb thinqs hpn t mye these days .
hais .
last friday went t li pinq hse t ton aft cq .
baked cookies for th cq n ourselves .
baked till i fell sick luhhs .
was sniffinq all th way while bakinq luhhs .
hais .
den ,
qot sore throat luhhs !
cos was too greedy .
hhas .
when th cookies were baked ,
i jus ate them .
hhas .
den too heaty tio sore throat .
den ii cannot tahan laas .
i stopped at 5.30a.m. liddat
we started bakinq at abt 11.30p.m. plus plus .
den li pinq baked th last tray ofb cookies till 6 plus plus .
cos ii too sick le.den b4 th last tray ofb cokkies was put into th oven ,i arranqed them into a heart shape .quite nice .will upload th pics on mye next update .cos now nort in mye comp .den we maked heart shaped cookies toos !nice nice !li pinq cut them out ,ii shaped them leas !hhas .
den sat went t church .den also gave th cqms th cookies !they said it was nice !hhas .bt qot some abit burnt .lol .b4 ii n li pinq went t church ,we went t singpost .den we went t this fashiontook alot ofb tops n tried .hhas .den ii tried on a white top !nice luhhs !ii wan buyy !
hhas . nice riqht ?:DDDDDDDDDDhais .2day went t find miss mok .ask when qo back band .den she asked me t qo t instrument de .cos percu too many ppl le .den ii qo ther squeeze oso no use .hhas .hais .my life would be changed forever le .dont have th mood t bloq anymore le .TAKECARE PEEEPS !with LOVE '
11:34 PM
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
wahhahahaha
super lonq nvr bloq lerh !!
miss mye marhhs??
:DDDDDDDDDDDD
anw e LDC wad fun luhhs
den ytd went to downtown wibb debbie
so fun la..
e pepsi n rainbow was dwn
bt e 360 wasnt !!
wahahhaha
played damn lots tym..
fun fun fun !!!!
ii won a whitetiqer
which we named it xiaotiqer
den debbie won a devil
which we named it xiiao moguii
LOL

this was e xiiaotiqer which ii won !!
this was e xiiao moguii debbie won
den e two winners took a foto tgt !!!
:DDDDDDDDD
cute rite?????
11:16 PM
Saturday, May 26, 2007
wahahahahhahahaim finally back frm my student leaders selection camp lerhhs !!bought a nike transparent water bottle
hais..
wanted to buy back e red one de
cos spoiled.
got one hole in it
den don habb
onli got transparent pink n green de
den ytd got e 2day one night slsc
very fun siia
hhas. im e mentor !!!
:DDDDDDDD
e most memorable de was
when we smashed raw & cooked eggs on e juniors head.
wahahahah.
sssssssooooooooooo fun larhhs.
den 2 dae mrs ess came to do e campanging workshop
super funny larhs her son & baby.
we laughed till lyk wad liddat larhhs.
LOL.
den e juniors got interview.
super duper long larhhs !!!!
rawrrrrssss !!!
while waiting for my members to finish their interview
wanling & ii slept in e theratte
so shiok
anw im too tired to blog anymore nw.
will upload pics ofb e camp ifb ii habb.
nite nite >.<
8:32 PM