Her Complicated Yet Promisinq life ;

Thursday, July 05, 2007

hellos:]
came t update le .
hmms .
quite alot ofb thinqs hpned .
hais

The thouqht of it makes me feel so depressed and unwanted .
even until now .
ie MISS you so so much .
im thinkinq of you every moment every second .
while you were out havinq fun ,
im starinq into the phone waitinq for your messaqes .
but you didn't even bother .
im readinq your messaqes OVER AND OVER aqain .
where were you when ie needed you MOST?
ie was there for you when you felt down .
what about me ?
have you ever spare a thouqht for me ?
can't you be more SENSITIVE towards me ?
you said that you care you worry .
but it seems lyk you dont .
action speaks louder then words my dear .
it is TOUGH for me to make a DECISION .
as i've been HURT before .
it left me with a DEEP DEEP scar .
where were you when ie needed you most ?
ie was there for you when you felt down
what about me ?
didn't you even spare a thouqht for me .
all that you cared for was YOUSELF .
~~JERK~~ !

hais .
den th day before yesterday
ie suddenly felt a thousands needles piercinq into my heart .
damn freakinq pain luhhs .
actually it quite normal .
hpned frm last year till now le .
everytym oso liddat de .
but normally ie still can tahan .
but yesterday was really really damn painful !
its PHYSICALLY PAIN luhhs !
den was talkinq t lipinq on th fone .
she asked me t see doctor .
but ie dowan .
cos lyk nth serious wad .
frm last year till now oso nth hpn .
den she tol me abt her aunt luhhs .
oso lyk me .
kept sayinq nth serious .
den in th end check le realise cancer staqe 4
ie chua tio luhhs .
den ie damn scared .
went t tell munny abt it .
den went t c doctor ytd .
th doctor lyk kns liddat la .
said it was nth serious luhhs .
den gave me some muscal pain de medicine .
den she said .
ifb eat le no use qo scan .
zzzzzz .
den my sore throat till now havent recover luhhs .
hais .
still couqhinq couqhinq everyday .
hais .
den couqh till lyk wan die liddat luhhs !
1 week plus plus le .
hais .
den sch open first week it think .
adora, shiy came t my hse t do lit project .
hhas .
took some photos .cos was super sian-ed .