Her Complicated Yet Promisinq life ;

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

my stronq wall ! dont ever leave me .

hais .
how ie really wish time would stop ,
somewhere somehow .
hais .
but ie know it wont .
im really puzzled now .
ie feel like im stucked between 2 great walls .
and ie feel like im qonnq break dowan anytime .
ie dont know .
ie feel so useless .
hais .
nut ther's one wall which is movinq away day by day .
t a place where it can be stronq enouqh t support other .
hais .
ie wont blame you , dont worry .
cos' ie know all th faut lies in me ,
nort you .
hais .
and th other wall respresents my will t qo on with life .
thankyou !
how ie wish we could be tqt .
hais .
but ie dont hink it would hpn riqht ?
hais .
cos' nothinq qood hpns t me .
im always involved in th bad thinqs .
hais .
im really stressed out now .
how ie wish ie could just end my fcukinq life riqht now .
hais .
im really worried that ie would lose th support that you are qivinq me now .
hais .
can you dont leave me ?
please ???

5:03 PM

Friday, July 13, 2007

UNTOUCHABLE MEMORIES

hais .
nowadays,
my memory is failinq mye .
keep forqetinq thinqs .
no matter important or nort
ie jus keep forqetinq .
now,
all ie can do is hOpe & pray that ie wont forqet ue .
hais .
really enjoyed th times so much .
ie don want t forqet it .
hais .
ue made me this way .
your th one hu caused all this .
why must you appear in my life ?
or riqht after i've been hurt by someone else .
its hard t forqet do you know ?
i've carved ue onto my heart .
it cant b erased so easily .
ie didnt use a pencil .
ie used a special pen just for a special someone like you
that cant b erased or forqotten easily .
hais .
why must this thinqs always happen t me & not others ?
why is GOD so unfair ?
you must b thinkinq that is just a cush all & all .
but,
ie can tell you that its MORE than just a crush .
ie turuly LOVE you .
at first,
ie couldn't use th word LOVE t describe my feelinqs for you .
but as time passed,
my feelinqs grew deeper everyday .
hais .
each day,
while you were out havinq fun,
im starinq into th phone waitinq for your msq-es .
you didn't know hoe much ie suffered
because of what you did .
you JERK !
& do you still remember th PROMISE we made ?
ie take th effort t try n remember & ie do hope you can remind me .
hais .
& t me,
ure th definition of LOVE .
ie would do anythinq just for you .
cos boy your so worth it .
your personality so perfect,
your my perfect match my soulmate
& lifetime bestfriend .
your my infinity on a scale of 1-10 .
ie meant every word that ie said .
just look into my eyes & you will know th truth .
ie just want t b with you .
cos ie know that there's nothinq in this world called FOREVER
can you just give me a chance ?
ie promise t love you with all my heart & soul .
th only thinq ie want now is
you t b by my side now .
ie really need you !

Do Our Primise Still Stands ?

Untouchable Memories

10:49 PM

Thursday, July 05, 2007

EMO ;

hellos:]
came t update le .
hmms .
quite alot ofb thinqs hpned .
hais

The thouqht of it makes me feel so depressed and unwanted .
even until now .
ie MISS you so so much .
im thinkinq of you every moment every second .
while you were out havinq fun ,
im starinq into the phone waitinq for your messaqes .
but you didn't even bother .
im readinq your messaqes OVER AND OVER aqain .
where were you when ie needed you MOST?
ie was there for you when you felt down .
what about me ?
have you ever spare a thouqht for me ?
can't you be more SENSITIVE towards me ?
you said that you care you worry .
but it seems lyk you dont .
action speaks louder then words my dear .
it is TOUGH for me to make a DECISION .
as i've been HURT before .
it left me with a DEEP DEEP scar .
where were you when ie needed you most ?
ie was there for you when you felt down
what about me ?
didn't you even spare a thouqht for me .
all that you cared for was YOUSELF .
~~JERK~~ !

hais .
den th day before yesterday
ie suddenly felt a thousands needles piercinq into my heart .
damn freakinq pain luhhs .
actually it quite normal .
hpned frm last year till now le .
everytym oso liddat de .
but normally ie still can tahan .
but yesterday was really really damn painful !
its PHYSICALLY PAIN luhhs !
den was talkinq t lipinq on th fone .
she asked me t see doctor .
but ie dowan .
cos lyk nth serious wad .
frm last year till now oso nth hpn .
den she tol me abt her aunt luhhs .
oso lyk me .
kept sayinq nth serious .
den in th end check le realise cancer staqe 4
ie chua tio luhhs .
den ie damn scared .
went t tell munny abt it .
den went t c doctor ytd .
th doctor lyk kns liddat la .
said it was nth serious luhhs .
den gave me some muscal pain de medicine .
den she said .
ifb eat le no use qo scan .
zzzzzz .
den my sore throat till now havent recover luhhs .
hais .
still couqhinq couqhinq everyday .
hais .
den couqh till lyk wan die liddat luhhs !
1 week plus plus le .
hais .
den sch open first week it think .
adora, shiy came t my hse t do lit project .
hhas .
took some photos .cos was super sian-ed .