Her Complicated Yet Promisinq life ;

Friday, August 10, 2007

Baby boy ;
this are for you .
ie hope you will qet th chance th read it .

I miss you .
I need you .
I want you .
I lonq for your love .
I feel helpless without you .
I want you by my side, always .
Im thinkinq abt you every moment, every second .
I wish that i could tell you this .
But im just too afraid t do so .
Im afraid that you would avoid me .
Im even more afraid that you would leave me for ETERTNITY !
But i still love you for who you are .
Your my perfect quy .
Your personality so perfect .
I remembered every sinGle word you said .
How i wished we could b toqether .
All i can do now is t wish n pray what you said was not true .
I hope you really can make my wish come true .
I will love you for life , i PROMISE .
I feel so useless, so depressed .
What if one day i landed in hospital ?
Would you be th first th rush down ?
Or would you be th last t come ?
Or rather would you even not turn up ?
I don't know how much i mean t you in your heart,
But i know in my heart,
You do mean alot t me .
Your my everythinq,
My one and only .
If only ie could own you for just a day,
I would b contented enouqh t end my life now,
Just for you,
And no other .
My heart beats for you .
Your my only reason t carry on with life .
Without you,
I quess i would drop dead .
I love th way you cared for me .
Every tear i shed,
Is for you .
My Dearest Boy .

11:54 PM

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

my stronq wall ! dont ever leave me .

hais .
how ie really wish time would stop ,
somewhere somehow .
hais .
but ie know it wont .
im really puzzled now .
ie feel like im stucked between 2 great walls .
and ie feel like im qonnq break dowan anytime .
ie dont know .
ie feel so useless .
hais .
nut ther's one wall which is movinq away day by day .
t a place where it can be stronq enouqh t support other .
hais .
ie wont blame you , dont worry .
cos' ie know all th faut lies in me ,
nort you .
hais .
and th other wall respresents my will t qo on with life .
thankyou !
how ie wish we could be tqt .
hais .
but ie dont hink it would hpn riqht ?
hais .
cos' nothinq qood hpns t me .
im always involved in th bad thinqs .
hais .
im really stressed out now .
how ie wish ie could just end my fcukinq life riqht now .
hais .
im really worried that ie would lose th support that you are qivinq me now .
hais .
can you dont leave me ?
please ???

5:03 PM

Friday, July 13, 2007

UNTOUCHABLE MEMORIES

hais .
nowadays,
my memory is failinq mye .
keep forqetinq thinqs .
no matter important or nort
ie jus keep forqetinq .
now,
all ie can do is hOpe & pray that ie wont forqet ue .
hais .
really enjoyed th times so much .
ie don want t forqet it .
hais .
ue made me this way .
your th one hu caused all this .
why must you appear in my life ?
or riqht after i've been hurt by someone else .
its hard t forqet do you know ?
i've carved ue onto my heart .
it cant b erased so easily .
ie didnt use a pencil .
ie used a special pen just for a special someone like you
that cant b erased or forqotten easily .
hais .
why must this thinqs always happen t me & not others ?
why is GOD so unfair ?
you must b thinkinq that is just a cush all & all .
but,
ie can tell you that its MORE than just a crush .
ie turuly LOVE you .
at first,
ie couldn't use th word LOVE t describe my feelinqs for you .
but as time passed,
my feelinqs grew deeper everyday .
hais .
each day,
while you were out havinq fun,
im starinq into th phone waitinq for your msq-es .
you didn't know hoe much ie suffered
because of what you did .
you JERK !
& do you still remember th PROMISE we made ?
ie take th effort t try n remember & ie do hope you can remind me .
hais .
& t me,
ure th definition of LOVE .
ie would do anythinq just for you .
cos boy your so worth it .
your personality so perfect,
your my perfect match my soulmate
& lifetime bestfriend .
your my infinity on a scale of 1-10 .
ie meant every word that ie said .
just look into my eyes & you will know th truth .
ie just want t b with you .
cos ie know that there's nothinq in this world called FOREVER
can you just give me a chance ?
ie promise t love you with all my heart & soul .
th only thinq ie want now is
you t b by my side now .
ie really need you !

Do Our Primise Still Stands ?

Untouchable Memories

10:49 PM

Thursday, July 05, 2007

EMO ;

hellos:]
came t update le .
hmms .
quite alot ofb thinqs hpned .
hais

The thouqht of it makes me feel so depressed and unwanted .
even until now .
ie MISS you so so much .
im thinkinq of you every moment every second .
while you were out havinq fun ,
im starinq into the phone waitinq for your messaqes .
but you didn't even bother .
im readinq your messaqes OVER AND OVER aqain .
where were you when ie needed you MOST?
ie was there for you when you felt down .
what about me ?
have you ever spare a thouqht for me ?
can't you be more SENSITIVE towards me ?
you said that you care you worry .
but it seems lyk you dont .
action speaks louder then words my dear .
it is TOUGH for me to make a DECISION .
as i've been HURT before .
it left me with a DEEP DEEP scar .
where were you when ie needed you most ?
ie was there for you when you felt down
what about me ?
didn't you even spare a thouqht for me .
all that you cared for was YOUSELF .
~~JERK~~ !

hais .
den th day before yesterday
ie suddenly felt a thousands needles piercinq into my heart .
damn freakinq pain luhhs .
actually it quite normal .
hpned frm last year till now le .
everytym oso liddat de .
but normally ie still can tahan .
but yesterday was really really damn painful !
its PHYSICALLY PAIN luhhs !
den was talkinq t lipinq on th fone .
she asked me t see doctor .
but ie dowan .
cos lyk nth serious wad .
frm last year till now oso nth hpn .
den she tol me abt her aunt luhhs .
oso lyk me .
kept sayinq nth serious .
den in th end check le realise cancer staqe 4
ie chua tio luhhs .
den ie damn scared .
went t tell munny abt it .
den went t c doctor ytd .
th doctor lyk kns liddat la .
said it was nth serious luhhs .
den gave me some muscal pain de medicine .
den she said .
ifb eat le no use qo scan .
zzzzzz .
den my sore throat till now havent recover luhhs .
hais .
still couqhinq couqhinq everyday .
hais .
den couqh till lyk wan die liddat luhhs !
1 week plus plus le .
hais .
den sch open first week it think .
adora, shiy came t my hse t do lit project .
hhas .
took some photos .cos was super sian-ed .

adora & mye(:

adora, shiy & me !

saw Vivie lyinq on a pece of newspaper .
hhas .

took a photo of her .

ain't she cute ?

went t SYF openinq last fri at SIS ie think .

it was damn damn nice luhhs .

hhas .

when MF came out t perform we kep shotuinq luhhs .

we went ki-siiao .

hhas .

ie did nort reqret qq .

& here are th cookies ie arranqed in a heart shape

as promised in th previous update !
nice ?

takecare people !

8:53 PM

Monday, June 25, 2007

my life is chanqed forever !

hello people !!
super lonq nvr bloq le !
hhas .
alot ofb thinqs hpn t mye these days .
hais .
last friday went t li pinq hse t ton aft cq .
baked cookies for th cq n ourselves .
baked till i fell sick luhhs .
was sniffinq all th way while bakinq luhhs .
hais .
den ,
qot sore throat luhhs !
cos was too greedy .
hhas .
when th cookies were baked ,
i jus ate them .
hhas .
den too heaty tio sore throat .
den ii cannot tahan laas .
i stopped at 5.30a.m. liddat
we started bakinq at abt 11.30p.m. plus plus .
den li pinq baked th last tray ofb cookies till 6 plus plus .
cos ii too sick le.
den b4 th last tray ofb cokkies was put into th oven ,
i arranqed them into a heart shape .
quite nice .
will upload th pics on mye next update .
cos now nort in mye comp .
den we maked heart shaped cookies toos !
nice nice !
li pinq cut them out ,
ii shaped them leas !
hhas .
den sat went t church .
den also gave th cqms th cookies !
they said it was nice !
hhas .
bt qot some abit burnt .
lol .
b4 ii n li pinq went t church ,
we went t singpost .
den we went t this fashion
took alot ofb tops n tried .
hhas .
den ii tried on a white top !
nice luhhs !
ii wan buyy !

hhas . nice riqht ?
:DDDDDDDDDD

hais .
2day went t find miss mok .
ask when qo back band .
den she asked me t qo t instrument de .
cos percu too many ppl le .
den ii qo ther squeeze oso no use .
hhas .
hais .
my life would be changed forever le .
dont have th mood t bloq anymore le .
TAKECARE PEEEPS !
with LOVE '

11:34 PM

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

Wheeess~

wahhahahaha
super lonq nvr bloq lerh !!
miss mye marhhs??
:DDDDDDDDDDDD
anw e LDC wad fun luhhs
den ytd went to downtown wibb debbie
so fun la..
e pepsi n rainbow was dwn
bt e 360 wasnt !!
wahahhaha
played damn lots tym..
fun fun fun !!!!
ii won a whitetiqer
which we named it xiaotiqer
den debbie won a devil
which we named it xiiao moguii
LOL

this was e xiiaotiqer which ii won !!

this was e xiiao moguii debbie won

den e two winners took a foto tgt !!!

:DDDDDDDDD
cute rite?????

11:16 PM

Saturday, May 26, 2007

student leader selection camp'07

wahahahahhahaha
im finally back frm my student leaders selection camp lerhhs !!
bought a nike transparent water bottle
hais..
wanted to buy back e red one de
cos spoiled.
got one hole in it
den don habb
onli got transparent pink n green de
den ytd got e 2day one night slsc
very fun siia
hhas. im e mentor !!!
:DDDDDDDD
e most memorable de was
when we smashed raw & cooked eggs on e juniors head.
wahahahah.
sssssssooooooooooo fun larhhs.
den 2 dae mrs ess came to do e campanging workshop
super funny larhs her son & baby.
we laughed till lyk wad liddat larhhs.
LOL.
den e juniors got interview.
super duper long larhhs !!!!
rawrrrrssss !!!
while waiting for my members to finish their interview
wanling & ii slept in e theratte
so shiok
anw im too tired to blog anymore nw.
will upload pics ofb e camp ifb ii habb.
nite nite >.<

8:32 PM